Realization

I'm kind of tired of being "the friend" =\

An "I am" Poem

I wrote this poem for my seminar class for TEP:

I Am From…

By Sarah Wang

I am from notes,

treble and bass clef.

I am from tap shoes

with a broken sole.

I am healed

from a broken soul,

and a broken heart.

I am from punishment for

every wrong answer.

I am from “just do your best”

when my best just isn’t enough.

I am from a place of

opportunity, equality, and freedom (supposedly).

I am from sunny, blue skies

and white clouds,

no rain

or snow.

I am from traditions of red envelopes.

I am from Princes and Princesses

in a land far, far away,

with dragons.

But I am not from happily ever afters.

At This Moment

So I'm reading the articles that I'm assigned to read for this week for my education classes, and a lot of the content seem to really echo the lessons I've learned on mission trips or lessons I've learned preparing for those mission trips. I'm really enjoying reading this articles and it's really cool how the different aspects of my life are colliding right now. So I think after the week of orientation, learning about TEP's visions, and starting to read these articles I really do feel like I'm at where I'm supposed to be at in life. I feel like I am following God's calling for my life and it feels reeeaaalll goooood!! =D......I hope it continues to feel this way and the stress of school won't hinder it.

"Home" @ OC

So she wonders why I never like to go home...maybe it's cuz every single time (literally) that I visit she calls me fat...and reminds me that I'm gaining weight and that I shouldn't eat so much....

(500) Days of Summer

So haven't blogged in over half a year....in like....10 months...I guess I might start up again since I have nothing else to do, but it prolly wouldn't be interesting cuz I have no life.

Today watched 500 Days of Summer with Ashley. The guy's life in the movie really echoed with me, felt very similar to my life. I really did enjoy the movie, I felt it was a really good movie (artsy which i really enjoy), not like a typical happy-go-lucky chick flick, but also made me a lil depressed because I felt like it was like my life. Also, I guess moving here in RB, I've felt more lonely, always at home doing nothing (but i'm pretty sure that'll change when school starts). People are either working or with their sig. others, while i'm just at home doing nothing, watching tv for most of the day and nite. I think that's why more than ever I want a kitten, something to keep me company and cuddle with, something to be affectionate with, and actually wanna be in company with me. I miss my cat now more than ever....she was the one thing that was consistently there for me in my life.

as an extrovert....it's hard to be alone in long periods of time with no one to talk to....

i hope this school year will be better than the last.....