Broken Trust

throughout hs i've always had issues with trusting people, from broken friendships and broken hearts. each time in a new relationship with anyone i put up a shield to protect myself, and it seems that each time i slowly open myself to a person and eventually completely put down my shield, that person dissappoints me in some way (not saying this happens to everyone i know, but more so than i'd like).

however, throughout college, i've learned about Jesus' love for me and for others. i want to love others as Jesus loves us, and am continuing in that pursuit. i've learned to open myself up more and to trust people more even though sometimes it is still hard. I know that i still try to protect myself and when i completely put my shield down i will get hurt, but i'm starting to accept it, starting to be healed from it by thinking about Jesus' love for me, and knowing that no matter how much i get hurt from others it doesn't matter cuz all i need is Him. He's the only one that fills me completely and meets/exceeds all my expectations.